This Life of Mine

Well….I have been gone for awhile but I am sad to report that my grandma passed away on the 13th of November, and we just laid her to rest on the 20th of November, a few days ago. While my heart hurts deeply, I am so glad that my grandma is no longer in pain, no longer suffering from the evilness that is Cancer. She fought a long, hard battle. I find peace in knowing that she was ready to go, ready to leave this place because she said that she was out of her own mouth. I have no doubt in my mind about where my grandma’s soul lingers because she was truly an angel on this earth. She helped everyone, everyone loved her, and most importantly she was committed to God if not anyone else. She always kept him first.

I will definitely miss her presence, her beautiful face, her kind words, her jokes, her cries, everything about her, I will miss. It can’t be replaced but it will always be remembered and cherished until the end of my time, and I will one day see her again if I live right and make it to heaven. RIP Mrs. Dannella Maria Winston. I was a grandma’s baby, and always will be. I love you. I miss you.

November 22nd, 2008
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I know yall remember this. This is a classic. I used to love this damn song! I still do!

September 21st, 2008
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The Regina Belle edition. I love the Teddy Pendergrass version the best, but still…this song? I’m sure everyone can relate to it…once you get fed up, and you know you’ve played the fool, or whatever the case may be. This song represents when you have to just “let it go” and take those shorts/losses. It couldn’t have been sung by anyone better IMO. Teddy Pendergrass & the lovely, Regina Belle.

August 27th, 2008
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Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…hey, hey, hey, hey…yea…
Oh…oh…oh…oh…oh…oh…oh…ooh…oh…oh…

You stay awake half the night
Love is just a perfect chance
It must be love that’s on your mind
You’re doin’ things you wouldn’t before, oh…

Love will make you oh, so happy
Inside, ha, ha, ha (Ha…ha…ha…)
Love will make you oh, so sad
Make you cry, ha, ha, ha

Oh…changes
That’s what love makes you do, hoo…
Changes
That’s what love makes one do

Oh…oh…oh…oh…
Uh, ooh…

Wonder if it’s real this time
Or just another half-goodbye
You walk around starry eyed
Can’t believe that love would hurt again, oh…love

Love (Love) will (Will) make (Make) you (You) oh, so happy (Oh, so happy)
Inside (Inside), ha, ha, ha (Ha…ha…ha…ha…)
Love (Will) will (Make) make (You) you oh, so sad (Oh, so sad)
Make you cry (Make you cry), ha, ha, ha (Oh, yes, it will)

Changes
That’s what love makes you do, hoo…
Changes
Oh, what love makes one do

Love will make you oh, so happy
Inside (Inside), ha, ha, ha (Ha…ha…ha..oh, ha…)
Love will make you oh, so sad (Oh…oh…)
Make you cry (Oh, ooh, make you cry), ha, ha, ha (Ooh, make you cry)

(Love) Love (Will) will (Make) make (You) you oh, so happy
Inside (Inside), ha, ha, ha (Oh…oh…yeah…)
Love (Love) will (Will) make you (Make you) oh, so sad (Oh, so sad)
Make you cry (Ooh, yes, it will), ha, ha, ha (Ooh, yes, it will)
(If you’ve ever been in love you know what I mean)

Love (Love) will (Will) make (Make you) you oh, so happy (Oh, so happy)
Inside

The lyrics said it all. What else is it say? This is one of the realest songs ever. Love will make you do some crazy shit. It will make you happy, sad,….plain damn crazy. This song is beautiful. I’m 25 years old, but trust me when I say, I know all too well about this. I blisten to this song on my subs in Chevy and sing it all of the way to work…………..even though I can’t. LOL

August 27th, 2008
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If you’ve checked my “V’s fav’s” playlist on Imeem, then you’d know that this is one of my favorite songs ever. This song reminds me of the good ‘ol days, the memories that I’ve shared with people who are here now, and people who have passed away. The lyrics of the song cut deep within my soul. I remember back in 2000 when i first bought this cd…I listened to it, on repeat, for about 2 hours straight, sitting on a bus, going out of town….just looking at the highway, letting my mind wonder and reminisce on things that have transpired in my life & the lives of others. It’s just an overall wonderful song. I love it.

August 26th, 2008
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August 25th, 2008
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HYPOTHETICALLY SPEAKING…. 

How do you when it’s the right time to tell a person that you love them? It could be just loving them as a person, as a friend, as something more, but when do you know that you’re actually ready to just say “hey pal, IIIII love ya!”? LOL

When you haven’t been in the position in such a long time, you can almost forgot how it feels to genuinely develop a friendship/relationship where you know that you COULD have those type of feelings for somebody. It’s not always “Oh I love u, come be with me, lets live happily ever after!” but just, “hey, I appreciate you being in my life, being my friend, I wouldn’t want anything but happiness for you, I love you, for what you are to me at this moment.” But, how do you say that to a person who probably isn’t ready to hear it?

Some people get scared away because they think you’re expecting something out of them, expecting them to do this or do that. Some people underestimate you or your feelings for them and think that couldn’t possibly be true. But, as I stated, it all depends on what type of love you’re talking about. So, I would like to hear from some of you readers out there. How would you tell a person in your life, who totally wouldn’t expect it, that you loved them?

August 25th, 2008
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Gotta have these 2 items for my birthday, LIKE ASAP! BabyPhat sunglasses & necklace.

August 24th, 2008
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So, I’m up here at work chilling man, got alot of things on my mind today. Last night I got into another heated argument which lead to nothing being resolved. My grandma is in the hospital AGAIN. That really has me down. My grandma is the best person I’ve ever known, and I just wish she could live her life without having to suffer, while the worse people in the world go unharmed, healthy, and full of life, only to bring havock into the lives of others. Life’s a bitch, huh? I guess

 I tried to holla at my friend while I was at lunch, but once again it seems like our schedules are conflicting. I’m on this new 12:30-9:30 shift, which is alright, but at the same time I’m blind as hell & I really hate driving all the way home by myself at night and I can’t hardly see. i have eye appointment set up for next week so I can get my contacts back.

Besides that, I’m just trying to master my skills on this new job. It’s still a lot of things that I’m not comfortable with, and I just need to find time to research that stuff on my own time, make my own little study guide or something.

While I was driving to work this morning I noticed my car acting funny again. Hopefully, It’s just the oil…because I JUST got this car fixed, and I don’t need something else to break. I don’t have any people who I can depend on 100% to get me where I need to be in a timely fashion, so having my own ride is a must. No doubt about it. I wish I actually had somebody who would check that stuff for me regularly without me having to ask…because afterall, I am a busy woman, and I can be forgetful at times. I love my Caprice. I will probably never ever ever sell it, but I am definitely looking into getting me a new, primary car, because the gas & etc is just becoming too much for me now. But as always, another day, another dollar, another problem. Until next time….

August 18th, 2008
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When you have feelings for a person, it’s hard putting your heart out there on the line. Your feelings for a person doesn’t necessarily guarantee an equal response of those feelings being reciprocated towards you. With that being said, you can sometimes make a fool of yourself, which is easy to do if the person you’re feeling isn’t being honest with you. I have a friend who has developed some deep feelings for a guy. When they first met, they damn hear hated each other.
As life would have it, they actually grew fond of each other….closer than they ever expected. It started off slowly…but soon, the feelings began to rapidly develop. He seemed like everything she’d been wanting in a person. the problem is…they live many states apart & he is fresh out of a fucked up relationship that ended bad….she’s still IN a fucked up situation with a dude who is basically all for himself. I’ve asked my friend why she hasn’t left this dude….and she doesn’t know…because truly…it’s NOTHIN really keeping here there besides all of the time & devotion invested. She’s not in love…she wish she had somebody who she could fall in love with. They are really only house mates for the time being. No dinners, no dates, nothing. As for sex, pull out the dildo and the AA batteries.

The guy she likes, for example, is someone with the qualities she wants a man to possess, so she could easily see herself falling in love with him. As for her current, she just simply stated that she just hated the fact that she backtracked…and now since she has…it’s hard to get out of the shit that she is slowly but surely sinking into with this dude. We can live our whole life waiting on someone to love us, to cherish us, to take full advantage of all of the good that we’re offering to bring into their lives. We can wait an entire lifetime on someone to change their shitty ways, when really & truly, they’re content being exactly who they are. The guy asked my friend, why was there always a hindrance when it was time for them to talk or do this or that, and my friend told me that it almost made her feel like she was becoming a problem…and that’s the last thing she wants to be. She wants to be the brightness in his life, the sunshine, not the rain. On some real shit, she can TRY to be whatever she wants to be to him, but it takes two, and if he’s not ready then she has to respect it. She knows she has feelings for him, because he stays on her mind, she thinks about him & always smiles at the thought of his presence. The guy has hinted that he is not willing to give my friend his all right now, so she really needs to hold back some of the feelings she has, because in the end, she’s going to get hurt. It’s hard not to like this guy though, I must admit. He has a swag about him that just screams for attention in a good way, intelligent, respectful to those deserving of it, kind hearted, considerate, romantic.
My friend says she doesn’t know what his old girl was thinking but any woman would be lucky to have him. I hope that even if he doesn’t pursue anything serious with my girl, that they both atleast find themselves someone who is willing to give them love, devotion, loyalty. I told my friend just quit planning shit if it always ends up going wrong. I told her to call when she wants, talk when she wants to, do whatever she needs to do…on her time…so that if it doesn’t go accordingly, she won’t damage her credibility in his eyes…because I know that’s the last thing she wants to do.

August 15th, 2008
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